♥Ainkecik Juju♥

2012-02-10T13:39:00.000+08:00

Hey guys! I'm just come back from interview this morning. Quite tiring day for me as there's a lot of walking today. And also, the weather is so hot today. Went to interview with the agency at Orchard Plaza at 9am. Thank god I was early and punctual for interview. Then went to another interview with the client at 158 Cecil Street, Tokyo Marine Building at 10am, post as 1 year data entry clerk. It's quite rushing through the interview today. Oh gosh! So tired now. And received call from Appco Pte Ltd, got an interview on Monday at 11.15am at Raffles Place, post as data entry/ customer service officer. 2 days straight going for interviews. So tired. Waiting for upcoming interview on Monday.

2012-02-09T15:50:00.000+08:00

It's kinda irritating agency! She call me this morning but I didn't pick up and she left me a sms and asked whether I am attending for tomorrow's interview. And I reply by saying yes. And she reply back by saying great! see you tomorrow at 9am. Disturbing me by call just to say that to me? So irritating and so pushy! What if I say that I'm not attending tomorrow, what will she do about it? I know where and when to go for the interview tomorrow, so please ehk this agency stop being so irritating! I couldn't sleep properly last night! I slept late this days as I can't really sleep at night.

2012-02-08T18:03:00.000+08:00

Hey guys! To those who reading my blog, I would to say thank you so much! :)

I just come back from interview at Novena Hall International Student Hostel, TG Development. As usual, fill up form and wait till 3.30pm as my I was early so I have to wait for my turn. As usual, wait for call. Don't know how long I should wait for calls. Haizz.. But it's okay as there are plenty jobs out there. No worries, as I still have one more upcoming interview this coming Friday morning at 9am at Orchard Plaza. Pray for me guys! :) But no matter what, I still won't give up to keep on sending my resumes! :)

2012-02-07T13:52:00.000+08:00

I feel so sad about what happen to my family now. From a happy family to a broken family now. Which means that, everyone was like doing their own things. Mom as usual, she will come back home in the morning and cook and after that she go out again. Sis and brother in law, come back home for awhile and then go out again. Left me and brother alone at home like we both doesn't have parents anymore or brother and sister. Last night, I was all alone at home. I cried cos I miss my happy family. Everything has change since after late dad passed away for 1 year plus now. Family problems every single day. Why must I be the victim of all of this? I feel like shouting to let my anger out and let the whole world know. How I wish I could rewind back everything and back to happy family again.

2012-02-06T20:08:00.000+08:00

Goodbye to January! Hello to February!

Dear February, please be good to me.

Hopefully, everything went smoothly! And it's an important year for me! :)

It's been a long time never update my blog!

Good news to share, my primary school bestfriend is getting married this coming Saturday! Can't wait to meet her on her wedding day! Alot of my friends is getting married before me. Boyfriend told me that he had a feeling that this year maybe we are not getting married by this year. But he will try his best to make it this year. Now, Boyfriend is working with his father as a part time valet parking at a hotel at bugis. His contract gonna end soon on the 18 Feb 2012.

I received a call from Office Secretaries Agency this afternoon. They have review my resume regarding the position that I applied for Data Entry Clerk for 3 months - 1 year. And guess what? I had an interview with the agency on this coming Friday at 9am and interview with the client on the same day at 10.30am. Hopefully, I can get the job.

2012-01-29T17:51:00.000+08:00

Supposedly, Boyfriend start work at 12pm till 9pm today. But when he reach at work, he call me and tell me that the restaurant is not open. And the kitchen is empty with no one at all. He saw no one in the restaurant except himself. Poor Boyfriend! He waited till half an hour but still no one is around except him. He call again and told me that he tired to wait for half an hour so he decided to went home. He already fed up with them. And now, he is in bed sleeping peacefully while I'm playing with lappy and blogging. Hopefully, I will received a call from one of them. Insyaallah. And hopefully to get a job soon as possible.

2012-01-28T17:15:00.000+08:00

Ola to everyone out there whose reading my blog.

I would like to say thank you so much for reading it! I appreciate it! :)

I went to another interview yesterday at Ngee Ann City Tower B Level 23 at 3.45pm. The person who is interviewing me asked me whether for example if they pay me $1000 for 3 months, will I be consider cos they can't pay my expected salary $1200 cos the job is quite simple. I told them that no problem, I will take the offer. If they can or cannot pay as much as I want, I will still take the job. Cos I need to have a stable job with extra income although my income is lower than Boyfriend. I don't mind if negotiate the salary as long as they hired me. Out of 2 interviews, either one of them, hopefully I can get. I can't get married if no job or no income at all. I can't always hope Boyfriend alone to work and get the income for our wedding and pay for everything. That is't fair. Insyaallah. Pray for me guys! :)

Today, Boyfriend work from 12pm till 9pm. Same timing like yesterday schedule. And tonight, he's coming back here. Can't wait to see him. I miss him so much. I have important things to discuss with him about our marriage course and wedding. So fast our relationship has been built for 2 years now and we going to get married after knowing each other for 2 years. I know it's too soon but I couldn't bear to wait that long to get married. I've already going to be 21 and already found my mr right, so what for I'm waiting for so long to get married. Soon, I'm going to a wife to Boyfriend. It's a big responsible for a wife. Insyaallah :)

2012-01-27T13:44:00.000+08:00

Boyfriend is at work now. He starts at 12pm till 9pm today. I'm going for another interview later on at 3.45pm. I'm feeling so nervous again, and I wonder why I'm so nervous. Hopefully I can get one of the job out of two interviews. Hopefully. I'm just hope that everything will go smoothly as I planned this year.

2012-01-26T19:19:00.001+08:00

Hey guys!

I'm back from my interview at 3.41pm. Luckily the manager is a man. If woman I guess confirm will ask long and alot of questions. Hopefully can get the job. I received a call 2 hours ago, interview tomorrow at Ngee Ann City Tower B at 3.45pm. Confused about the company name and unit number. Haha. But never mind, tomorrow will call her again to reconfirm.

After I've finish my interview just now, I quickly call Boyfriend before he start his work and told him that I've just finish my interview and headed home soon. He told me that he can't reply messages or even call me when he is working. Haizz.. That will make me feel more lonely without him. He told me that he doesn't know till what time he finish work. Now, I miss him already. :(

2012-01-26T11:27:00.000+08:00

Hello to my blog readers!

Boyfriend received call from the manager and get the job yesterday. After he received that call, he pack some of his stuff and clothes and went back home yesterday. Boyfriend start work today at 3pm-11pm at Wine Connection Tapas and Bistro at Robinson Walk. I'm going for an interview at Springleaf Tower at Tanjong Pagar at 2.30pm later. Now, I feel so lonely again without him. Now, I know how it feels like to be alone without anyone beside you. Now, I finally realise that how my mom is lonely is the same thing that I feel right now.

I told him this yesterday:

Lets get married as soon as possible as I can't bear the feeling of far from you anymore. And also promise me that when you work there that you won't drink that stuff anymore as I don't want our children's to follow their parents footsteps.

And he told me that: He knows and he also doesn't want our children's to be like that.

The feeling of our relationship is getting more stronger and stronger. I can't bear the feeling to be far away from him. Seriously, yesterday when he went back, I feel more lonely.

Okay, that's it for now. I'm going to get ready soon. Update again when I come back. :)

2012-01-25T14:32:00.001+08:00

Yesterday afternoon, I accompany Boyfriend for interview at Wine Connection Tapas Bar and Bistro. Waited for him for half an hour. Hopefully, he can get that job. Hopefully.

After that, we walked from Clarke Quay to Marina Bay. It's quite tiring as we both never go out for such a long time. As Boyfriend promise to bring me to Titanic Exhibition at Marina Bay Sands at ArtScience Museum. While walking at the Helix Bridge going to reach Marina Bay Sands, guess what I found. I found 5 bucks. Haha. What a luck!

Boyfriend took out money from DBS Bank and headed to ArtScience Museum to buy the tickets. For local is $24 and for PR is $28 that is only for adults. Bought all access pass, that means we get to go for Titanic and Cartier Art Time Exhibitions. I was so excited after bought the tickets. So happy get to go Titanic. The ship was a long ship and big just like the star cruise but this is bigger than the star cruise. Get to touch and experience the iceberg. The iceberg was so cold and freezing just like how jack was saying to rose. It was like a thousands of knifes. It can really freeze you to death.

I really enjoy myself with Boyfriend yesterday.

Our very first picture this year :)

2012-01-23T22:38:00.002+08:00

Ola to my blog readers! :)

So tired today as I accompany Boyfriend to KkH to visit his sister as she has just give birth to a babygirl yesterday. So cute.

I'm wonder when is my turn to get a cute babygirl.. Hehehe..

Tomorrow after lunch, Boyfriend had a job interview. Hopefully he get a job first before me..

2012-01-21T13:15:00.001+08:00

Ola to my blog readers!

I feel so happy ever since Boyfriend being honest with me by telling the truth about everything that I need to know all this years ever since I know him for about 2 years now. Seriously, I never being so much happy like now. This is what I do for our 2 years anniversary. As I have nothing to give him so I made this for him. Be creative! :)

He sacrifice alot for me and he's my only hope that I have now. I love him so much! :)

I would to say my condolence to the late of Izwan Pilus

May he rest in peace.

2012-01-13T22:16:00.002+08:00

Ola to my blog readers!

My day was good. I have an interview on Monday and Tuesday. Hopefully I can get one of that job.

Counting down to 3 more days for our 2 years anniversary! :)

2012-01-12T21:58:00.002+08:00

Hello to all my blog readers!

It is my worst day yesterday. Had a big argument with Boyfriend last night. Till he lost his temper on me on the phone. He shouted and being so fierce to me.

He didn't come home last night. I cried again over an argument. After I cool down, I call him again. I asked him to sing a song for me so that I can sleep. After he sing, then I can go to sleep.

He came back this morning at 8am with morning breakfast. After we had breakfast together, we went back to sleep. He apologize to me for being so fierce to me. And I apologize to him too. I was so irritating and make him angry.

But hopefully I hope everything is okay now. I'm happy now as he make me like I was the only girl that he have..

Okay, that's it for today! :)

2012-01-11T17:01:00.000+08:00

Ola to all my beloved blog readers!

I had the worst dream till I can't even describe what my dream is about. Nah, forget it then.

Today, I keep sending resumes but no one replies or call me for interview. True Yoga, why are you so slow processing my resumes? Boyfriend is sleeping peacefully right now while I'm surfing the net and listening to music using earpiece. Nowadays is very difficult to get a job from direct companies. But I won't give up on sending resumes. Jiayo!

2012-01-10T16:41:00.000+08:00

Ola to everyone and to all my blog readers.

My day wasn't that good. Boyfriend been going out with his best friend since yesterday and today. It's not that I don't want to follow, I really don't have enough money to go out. We as a woman, have to stand up for ourselves and can't keep depending on guys. I don't feel that it's the right way. We keep asking guys to pay for everything and I think that isn't fair for him. I don't him to think that I'm always depend on him. I'm not that type of girl that always depend on guys. I'm not like that okay guys. To be honest, I'm so jealous of him going out without me. How I wish I could go out with him and have fun. But right now, I'm stuck at home updating my blog, surfing the net, busy keep sending that stupid resumes while he go out and have fun without me. :(

I am really fucking bored without money and jobless and stuck at home!!!

I'm bored!!! Okay, I'm out of here!

Bye readers! :)

2012-01-09T00:37:00.000+08:00

Good Morning to all my blog readers!

Happy Monday blues again to all who are working and schooling!

And good luck and all the best to the students who are taking their GCE 'O' Level results. :)

So boring sitting at home and keep surfing the net and keep sending the resumes. You guys must be thinking about how I spend my weekends.

Okay, I spend my Saturday accompany Boyfriend to take his salary at his previous working place at AMK Central, Jubilee. Now, he's not working there anymore. Still waiting for call from his best friend, Ayun. After that, had our lunch at Burger King, just beside the amkhub taxi stand. Now is already open. The place is small than I think. Really squeezing.

Then I spend my Sunday by sleeping and wake up and sleep again as the weather is raining and it's cold outside. Was suppose to visit late dad but the weather does not allow us to visit him yesterday. I really miss him so much. I don't know how I manage living without him. I'm gonna visit him soon. That's how I spend my Sunday. Boring isn't it? I know it's boring but what to do. Singapore there is nowhere to go already as I already have gone to the places that I wanted to go. To me, Singapore is boring now.

Okay, that's it for today then. I still waiting for my agency to call. Hopefully, I get the good news from him. I'll will update the upcoming news okay. Got to go now. Goodbye :)

2012-01-08T12:24:00.001+08:00

Good Afternoon to all my blog readers! :)

With the weather that does not allow us to visit you today.

We will visit you very soon. I miss you Dad! :(

My Sunday morning wasn't that good as I am still sleepy and my eyes are like panda now cos waiting for Boyfriend to come back at 5am. Now he is sleeping peacefully while I have already taken my shower and still can't sleep back. After I had taken my lunch with Boyfriend yesterday, I don't have any appetite to eat or drink water at night till now. Am I too stressful thinking about my problems and can't sleep this days? Alot of things in my mind til I feel so stress. Everything has change ever since step dad passed away. Till now I don't know how I manage to bear with it living without him. Day by day have past, Day by day I miss him and wanted to visit him.

2012-01-08T00:28:00.000+08:00

Like finally I've got to contact back with my long time best friend. It's been so long never chat with her after a few months she's been missing. Really miss her alot. I share with her about my problems. And she give advice as she has also experience that. Thanks for the advice babe!

For those who already know that I'm getting married this year, please keep it to yourself first as I don't want to spread it the news before the thing really happen.

2012-01-06T15:50:00.001+08:00

Happy 2012. May this year be a good year for me.

Hello my blog readers, It's been a long time since the last I wrote. It's been really a hard time for me last year. From one problem to another, From one job to another, From one interviews to another interviews. And sometimes no interviews at all. Or can say that no news at all. How I wish I am at work now and doing my paperwork. I really miss working.

I went to interview yesterday. I apply personal assistant post. And received a call this morning that the post that I apply maybe it will take a little bit longer to process it and he have another vacancy for me and that is Admin Assistant. 8 hours, office hours. And I agree to that post and he will sent my resume to the client. I hope I get a job soon. I can't reject a job anymore this year as this year will be an important year for me. I'm taking my marriage course this june holidays and getting married end of the year. So it will be a tough and struggle year for me this year. I can't be playful anymore as I am going to be a wife soon. Now, Boyfriend is not working at Jubilee anymore as he already quit on 30 December 2011. Now he is waiting for call from his bestfriend to work with him. Hopefully, everything went smoothly for both of us. If you guys can kindly pray for both of us. That will be appreciate it. That's it for today. :)

Important things to note:

1) Get a stable job with stable income

2) Marriage course on June

3) Nikah end of the year

2011-12-20T20:12:00.001+08:00

After one problem to another problems that I have. I really tired of it and can't tolerate anymore of problems. My period still haven't come yet cos I'm so stress about family problems and the other problem that I have. It's been 6 days of period late. I'm just afraid something is wrong. But I think is because I'm stress. I'm going to get that back there tomorrow, I don't care what it takes. It's a secret you guys, sorry can't tell ya. Haha!

2011-12-19T18:59:00.000+08:00

Today was suppose my first day of work. Early in the morning before I went off to work, I had a really bad stomach ache. When I was getting ready for work, my stomach is not well. I was shocked when I reached at Ang Mo Kio Mrt Station, it was really damn crowded and so packed like people are queuing for 4D. But I think the service is getting bad to worst. OMG! The train goes slower and slower like a tortoise. When I was in the train, my stomach start to feel the pain. Luckily, I get to sit. And everyone was not feeling cold and I was the only one who is feeling so cold.

When the train was going to reached at Raffles Place, the train was stop and was stuck in there. When almost reaching Raffles, I was really feeling not well because of my stomach ache. Damn it was really painful! After reaching, I went out of the train, sit down at the bench and quickly call my director. I told him I'm at the Raffles now and the one who suppose to start work today and I totally not feeling well this morning. And I told him that this wasn't an excuse, I'm really in pain. And guess what he told me? He say that you go and settle it today and come back tomorrow. OMG! Thanks to him for giving me an excuse only for today.

Seriously guys, I never felt the pain like this before. I took the red line back home and quickly message Boyfriend that I'm coming back home. This isn't an excuse for not turning up for work. I really in pain. I don't want people to think that I want to escape from work. The answer is NO. Tomorrow, I'm going back to work.

Family problems again! Mom didn't come home for 2 days and she came back this morning like nothing happen. Just because of facial she come back home. And after facial again she went out with a green bag. I don't know what's is wrong with her? She's like leaving us all because of her stupid boyfriend. She's like doesn't care about her own childens anymore. But it's fine. We can survived with/without her at home. She is testing our patient. I'm so disappointed at her! I feel like crying!!!! :(

2011-12-18T21:59:00.001+08:00

I went to cousin's engagement yesterday. Isn't she beautiful? Haha. She is right! :)

This is her fiance. Handsome right? Hahaha.. Same age as Boyfriend.

Okay, let's start with today. Mom didn't come home last night. Okay, now family problems can't be solve till that busted is out of my house. Tomorrow is my first day of my new work. Hopefully, it won't be raining in the morning and hopefully I'm not late because of the MRT problem. Hopefully, tomorrow went smoothly.

2011-12-16T23:42:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 1 YEAR 11 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY TO US!

I remember when the first time I met you and we go out together on the 28/12/2009. After we went out, we took a bus from vivo to amk. It was a long journey. Suddenly, I feel so cold and you lend me your shoulder. So sweet of you. We met again on the 16/01/2010. That's the date that we start our love journey.

I would to say this for our 1 year 11 months anniversary today : You are the most amazing, kind, cute, funny, patient and supportive guy that I ever met. You were always there for me when I needed you. You were always there to support me. You were always willing to care and listen to what problems that I have. And always lend your shoulder for me to cry on and wipe my tears off when I cry. I would like to apologise to you that I argue with you last week. But still, I do care and always love you. I just don't want to lose you like how I lose my late step dad. I love you Jufri Juju! ♥

2011-12-15T20:21:00.001+08:00

I feel so happy since after I received a call from the director of the company that I went for interview on Tuesday. And again today, I feel so happy and excited because going for a movie date with Boyfriend later. Can't wait to watch Mission Impossible 4 at midnight. Counting down to 4 hours to go for our 1 year 11 months anniversary! Oh my lord! Time really running so fast and next month on 2012 is our 2 years anniversary! So fast, I can't believe it! That's it for now! Bye readers! Enjoy reading! :)

2011-12-14T13:08:00.001+08:00

I hate some employers because they will give us such a big hope that we are the suitable and selected candidates but in the end, they will say that we are not suitable candidate and they have found a suitable candidate for the following position. But if we are not the selected candidates, at least inform us so that we know and we can find other jobs. Sometimes I will wait for them but in the end, they don't have the guts to give a call or email me that I'm not a suitable candidates. And some point of time that when I already have a job, they will call and ask whether you are still working or not. When we are not selected, you don't want to call. When we have a job already, you start to call. Irritating employers!

Yesterday, after the interview, I've sent an email, a thank you letter to the company. I told them to inform me whether I am a suitable candidates or not. But there was no reply at all. And again, today I've sent them an email to ask them to update me as soon as possible. And finally, there's a reply and said that they are still interviewing candidates today and tomorrow. They will let me know on next Monday.

Oh my lord! I've got a good news to share with my sweet bloggers! I've got the job! Alhamdulillah! Start work this coming Monday, 9am-6pm! I'm back to square one again. What I mean is that I'm back working at Tanjong pagar! Like last year! Yeah! Lunch time, I can meet my friends again! Yahoo!! Hehehe! I'm so happy like finally after so long sitting at home doing nothing than eat, sleep, surf the net! Hahaha! On Monday, back to work! :)

2011-12-13T14:20:00.001+08:00

I have already went for an interview at 11am. The interviewer ask me to introduce myself. After have introduce everything, he don't care whether I have experience or not as long as I can work and type. But everything goes well. And hopefully can get that job. I have confident that I get the job. But he says if I'm selected maybe by this week or next week can start work. Please please! I want this job! Please! *Pray hard*

Later gonna meet my bestie. Long time never meet her.

2011-12-12T12:56:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah. I received a call from AVENTEDGE company regrading the position for Data entry/ Database List Researcher. She called for an interview tomorrow at 11am at Maxwell House. Thank goodness. Finally, I've got an interview. And hopefully, I can get that job. I don't care anymore. I just want a stable job and a stable salary. I don't care if it's per hour or 3 Months probation. I want a job.

About my relationship with Boyfriend: Well, everything is fine now. Except like now, I myself couldn't even recognize my own boyfriend. Because now he is botak. I just wondering that why he do that? I mean why did he cut his hair till botak and he told me to throw all the suey. But I don't care about the hairstyle. Just except him for who he is. All I know is, I love him so much and doesn't want to lose him.

2011-12-11T12:15:00.001+08:00

Boyfriend did come back last night. He is still angry with me. When he come back, he didn't talk that much. He just keeping more quiet. He didn't talk to me that much. He asked me whether is it good to sleep alone for 2 days. And I asked him is it good for not coming home. But now what I should do is that just keeping quiet and don't be too rude to him. But I'm surprised because when he came home, his head is botak now with a bit of hair. Like Oh my lord! What happen? He says he want to throw the suey away. Now he's not handsome like before. But it's okay. I think he's angry with me and he just did that. But why he did that? Is it because he's angry with me? But never mind. Now, I'm happy cos he's back. Just I need to do is just keep quiet and don't be rude to him.

2011-12-10T11:38:00.000+08:00

Boyfriend didn't come again last night. I cried the whole night again. It's been 2 days he's not coming home. I really miss him so much. I don't want to lose him like how I lose my late dad. He is my only hope now. I don't want to let that go. I will try to settle it and will stay in this relationship. I don't want to break up with him. I love him so much. My eyes are like panda now crying all night long. Hopefully he's coming home tonight. I really didn't mean it that way. I really can't imagine that our relationship would turn this way. I really do love him and I don't want to lose. But I know why he did that is because he wants to teach me a lesson.

Sometimes when you argue of just smaller thing, you might not know it may become a bigger problem. The more you argue with it, the more bigger and bigger. At times whereby when you are angry, you don't realised what you said, but when you think back, you feel like taking those words back.

Bby, If you are reading this, I am really sorry from head to toe. I really didn't mean it that way. I would never know it could turn this way. I promise you that I would never walk out of the house and leaving you again. I promise you. I feel so regretted and feel like taking all those words back that I said to you. I am really sorry. I missed you so much. Please come back home.

2011-12-09T18:47:00.000+08:00

Hello my blog readers! It's been a long time I never update my blog.

Yesterday was the worst day of my entire life. I argue with Boyfriend yesterday till he never come home the whole night till he come home this morning. I'm worried about him when he didn't come home. I do care about him. If I don't care, I don't give a damn shit about where he is. It all started with food. First started : He came home for dinner, he say he wanted to eat then I take for him. I asked him how many fishballs does he wants then he didn't answer me and I have to raise my voice louder so that he can hear me then he like not happy. Then he told me that he don't want to eat. I put the plate in the room. He didn't even touch the food or even drink. After half an hour, his friend called him and ask to meet and he agree to it. After I feel so fed up, I put the food at the dinning table and I change my clothes and I just leave the house and left him. I feel that my heart feel like wanted to burst out anytime so I go out. I went to walk around nearby my block and my tears keeping falling out while I was walking. The sad thing is that, he didn't even call or message me or even try to look for me. I just feel like I'm a stone. I went home at 9.15pm. The bicycle was not there, he already had gone back to work. The whole night, I keep on crying and thinking about the fight and about him. I really didn't mean it like that. I never thought that it could be such a big fight and when we argue with each other is like hating each other. The whole night he didn't come back home till I woke up at 4am and call him to ask where is he. He didn't answer the 1st phone rings. So I called him again, the 2nd time, he answered. I asked him where is he and what time is he coming back home and he told me that he is at his bestfriend's house which I know who house it is and also he will be back at 6.30am. When he came back home this morning, I apologies to him about what happened last night. He is still angry with me. Now, I have to give him a few days to be alright. I love him so much and he's my everything and I don't want to lose him. It's just feel really sucks when you argue with your boyfriend. Now my eyes are like panda.

Now, it's really hard to get a stable job with a stable salary. I really regretted of being a job hopper. Seriously, I really regretted of leaving choon hoe company. I really want to work there back. Hopefully there are still a vacancy for me. I really want it back. I promise if I work there back, I won't do that attitude anymore. I miss working there. If I still working there, next month is my 1 year working. Now, I'm praying so hard to get a good job. But it seems there's no call for interview yet.

2011-12-01T12:27:00.001+08:00

Goodbye to November! Say hello to December!

Dear December, Please be good to me! I want to get a stable job and a stable salary. I'm tired of changing jobs. I'm not a job hopper please. I have sent alot of resume but no one respond. Previously, I work at IT company at Dhoby Ghaut. But that company has been seal because that company owns a loan shark and I have to look for another job. I've got another job on the next day at Tuition Centre at Toa Payoh. After I've worked for 1 week, I argue with a parent. She scolded me using bad words and the worst thing that happen is, I've been fired because of that. But it's a long story to explain. And the worst thing that happen when I work there is, my money has been stolen from the group of flyers distributors. And because of that stupid group of guys, my money been stolen. Damn! In my whole entire life that I've worked, my money has not been stolen before. Now, I'm stuck with jobless. It's not easy to find another job because I have a less than a year of Admin experience. I have 1 year experience of Retail but I'm really sick and tired of working as a Retail assistant. Because it needs alot of effort, customer service and needs alot of patient of customers attitude. Now, I hate customer service job. I'm more to Admin job and more to typing job. I hate to talk to customer on the phone.

And today is the 3 months of Boyfriend working. It's really fast time and months flies. Boyfriend is a hardworking person and who is patient with his working colleagues when everytime time his colleagues bully him. Seriously, If I were in his shoes, I will scold them and teach them a lesson. Because they never do their job properly and always missing in action. Sometimes I pity him because he doesn't have a proper off day. And sometimes his off day, he have to replace his colleagues that never come to work when she have to come to work. And again today, she did not come again. Boyfriend is getting angry with her. He did call her but cannot get through her phone. Sometimes this people cannot give chances anymore. The more we give chances, the more they take it for granted.

2011-11-07T19:58:00.000+08:00

Today is public holiday and I am not working. Tomorrow is the day that I start my new work as Tuition Admin at Power Enrichment Training Centre at Toa Payoh. Hopefully, tomorrow everything is fine. And I hope I love the job scope and won't change job. I keep changing job is because I can't find what interest me the most. I don't like a job that will keeps me feel boring or can make me feel sleepy.

First job of my life:

BATA, PLAZA SINGAPURA

Role: Sales Assistant

Duties: Promoting shoes, doing house keeping example mopping and sweeping, counting stocks. Had no experience of doing Cashier as my manager doesn't want us to touch the counter.

Reference: Being working there since school holidays on year 2007 till 2008.

Second job: THE MOST FAVOURITE AND BEST JOB EVER

ML CONSULTING PTE LTD, TANJONG PAGAR - INTERNATIONAL PLAZA

Role: Data Entry

Duties: Keying data into in house system, doing survey on behalf of MCYS, customer service, sorting and filing papers.

Reference: Working there after 3 months graduate from ITE. The most of the best job I ever had. Seriously, I miss working there. Work there on Apr 2010 till May 2010.

Third job: The most tiring and sleepy job ever

BCS Information Systems Pte Ltd, Toa Payoh - Wearnes Building

Role: Data Entry

Duties: Data entry into the system, doing sorting cheques such as DBS, POSB, OCBC.

Reference: The most tiring job ever is because when you type, you need to be fast and also be alert of what you are typing. All my fingers are painful is because I have to type very fast. Work there on Aug 2010 till Sep 2010.

Fourth job: The best job ever

Choon Hoe Construction Pte Ltd, Hougang - Kovan

Role: Retrieve emails / faxes, provide support to project and accounts department, application and renewal of work permit and ad hoc admin duties.

Reference: The most best and favourite job ever. Everyday is my favourite day and I'm not tired of working there. I love to work there. I did sent an email last 2 months and say that I want to work back but too bad as the position has been filled. I really feel regret that I left the company as in M.I.A. Work there on Jan 2011 till Feb 2011.

2011-11-06T10:41:00.001+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Haji to all muslims family & friends. Enjoy your Sunday.

Tomorrow is public holiday. And I am not working. Yeah!

I guess today there's nothing to do at home because today mom doesn't want to go to grandmother house. So have to stay at home instead. As for Boyfriend, he is working. Like what working 24/7. But I can't be angry with him or blame him because he is the team leader and also a supervisor. Boyfriend is a hardworking person and also he doesn't take leave for no reason. He only take leave when he really need it. But no matter what, I still love him for who he is and take him for who he is.

On Tuesday, gonna start a new work. New environment which brings my interest of all time. It's a Tuition Centre. I don't care about the place or the working time because this is my interest. Although it is small, but I don't give a damn about that anyway. Now, I'm worrying about the salary and when the school holidays starts and will I still get my pay when they are closing on school holidays? As I guess, I will be not working on school holidays for what about 1 month+. Then what am I gonna do? My salary is not $1200 anymore. Now it's $5/hr and have to commit till 3 months. After 3 months, hopefully they can increase my salary to what I want. Hopefully. Because I really need that kind of amount to save up for my marriage. As I promise I will get marriage by next year.

Family and even Boyfriend, I didn't tell about what happen to my previous job. But no matter what happen, I will explain to them. Because I know that I can't keep on lying and lying about this matter. Slowly I will tell them but not now yet. Not the time yet.

2011-11-01T19:37:00.000+08:00

Goodbye to October. And hello to November!

Dear November, please be good to me.

Tomorrow is my Wednesday Blues. Gonna get back to work tomorrow morning. Oh no, feel like don't want to go to work tomorrow. Lazy to go to work. Haiyo! But no matter what, I had to is because I have promise my senior admin to come back to work tomorrow. I have to sleep early cos I need to wake up early tomorrow. Sometimes, I feel schooling is much more better than working. Becos schooling, you don't have to rush doing things in class. Schooling, you just sit in class and listen and write to what the teacher teach you. Working, you have to answer phone calls, deal with deadlines and be independent. Sometimes, I feel scared when I'm at work because I have to deal things that I'm unfamiliar with. And things that I don't know and what I should do with it. Sometimes, I'm too clumsy when I'm at work. When you go to different working environment, there are different kinds of things that you have to learn. It doesn't matter whether your skill is isolated, it's the matter of you are willing to learn new things in the new working environment. Well, I guess all the best to me for tomorrow.

2011-10-27T19:26:00.000+08:00

I feel so happy today because it's my off day today till next Tuesday. My senior admin is on leave till next Tuesday so have to come back to work on next Wednesday. I have a feeling that I can stay in this job. Hopefully. About my relationship with Boyfriend, everything is fine and okay. Just hopefully that we both can last long till married. Okay, that's it for today as I don't have anything else to update.

2011-10-26T21:40:00.000+08:00

Started off with a brand new job on Monday as the only Junior Admin Assistant at IT Enabler Consultancy Pte Ltd at Parklane Shopping Mall near to Dhoby Ghaut Mrt. The role of the job is to update the training course to an MS Access, answering phone calls, collect mails, preparing tea breaks when the cleaning lady is not around, filing and data entry and also check classroom whether the switch are switch off.

Today is Deepavali and it's public holiday. And is everyone's off day except Boyfriend. I have an off day till next Tuesday as my Senior Admin is on leave till next Tuesday and have to come back to work on next Wednesday. Woohoo!! Yeah!!!

I hope that I can handle this kind of job. Although its a training centre and I hope that I can handle the role of the job. I hope that I won't give up although it looks kinda tough and difficult role and responsible job. I have no other choice but to work rather than sit at home and spend alot of hours on my lappy surfing the net. Like a 24hours..

2011-10-21T17:51:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah. Yesterday when I went for an job interview at Parklane Shopping Mall at 11.45am. After the interviewer interview me, she test me with Microsoft Access. Is because that will be my job for the role of Admin Assistant. And guess what? I've got the job. And will be start working on next Monday at 8.30am- 5.30pm. I am so happy. Like finally, I've got a job after so long I've been at home keep doing house work. :)

2011-10-07T17:48:00.000+08:00

Movie date with Boyfriend yesterday at 6.40pm at Amk Hub. Real Steel movie is awesome! Feel like want to watch again. Haha. Today, I'm in a bad mood. First of all, all plates and cups are all put at the sin and did not wash at all. And second thing, my bro wash his clothes but lazy to hang his own clothes. WTF! They think what I'm a maid is it!!! Bloody hell!!

2011-10-06T10:22:00.000+08:00

Went to follow sister to Amkhub to buy her new laptop. But it's okay if I didn't get a new but I have order new keypad for my lappy keyboard. And also soon, I'm gonna buy my own printer. As my mom's boyfriend said that he's gonna buy for me but end up he didn't buy. This is what I called Loud words without action. But it's okay. I don't mind. I'm gonna buy what I need by myself then. As they don't know what I really need. As I can't ask my dad for money.

Going for movie date with Boyfriend later. Gonna watch Real Steel. :)

2011-10-04T11:14:00.000+08:00

Yesterday evening, Boyfriend called me and asked me to help him out at his work place. I'll get ready and went to Boyfriend work place and help him out as the other helper did not come to work again. Help Boyfriend sweeping the floor from level 3 to level 1. I pity Boyfriend because he everyday do the cleaning. With / without the other helper, he still do the cleaning although he just in charge of attendance and management of that Jubilee building. I will earn $20 cash money if I help out Boyfriend.

2011-10-03T12:26:00.000+08:00

Goodbye to September. Hello to October!

October, please be good to me. I want to have a good career and at the same time, I want to go for holiday at Langkawi next month. But sadly that Boyfriend can't follow me for holiday. None of the employers called me. I want Admin job. I don't want a call center job. For now, I'm still waiting for call from my agency for retail job at Zara/ Mango/ H&M. Hopefully, I can get one of them. Or Admin job.

2011-09-19T23:16:00.000+08:00

First day of work was great. I made new friends again. I've learned alot of new things about the policy and the insurance things. Seriously, maybe I would like to stay there longer and don't want to change jobs anymore. Too tired of changing jobs. I love that place alot. And in two days time, I have my own table for 3 months and hopefully can extend till one year or forever work there. I'm really too tired of changing jobs and tired of printing and sending resumes to employers here and there. And went for interviews here and there. Now, I'm feeling so sleepy. I want to sleep now as I have to wake up early for work. Goodnight Bloogers! :)

2011-09-18T14:23:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is my first day of work at NTUC Income Centre. Working as Administrative Assistant. I don't know which department I'm going to. I have to report at 9am and report to Ms Christine, HR department. Hopefully tomorrow everything turns out alright. And hope, I can do my very best tomorrow and enjoy my new work environment. I have to wake up early and went out to work earlier than Boyfriend.

2011-09-06T21:54:00.000+08:00

To my blog readers, Sorry for not updating this days as I have nothing to update. Thank god that today my period has come as it was 1 month plus never come and I was so worry but my family doctor told me not to worry because I'm not pregnant only that the tissue inside my body has not mature yet and that is why sometimes my period is late. Lately, Boyfriend is working from morning till night. He is working very hard now since after he come back on May 2011. I'm not showing off but I am proud to have a hardworking Boyfriend. He do take care of me when I'm sick. He do cares for me. I love him so much.

Hopefully, tomorrow I'll get a good news from CAS Technology Pte Ltd. Because the HR tell me to wait for her call on Wednesday. If I received her call tomorrow, that means I get to go for final interview. Well hopefully I get a good news tomorrow. I'm tired of waiting for calls.

2011-09-02T17:23:00.000+08:00

Went for job interview at 11am, at Ubi Cresent, Ubi TechPark. The office wasn't that big. The interviewer was friendly but seriously, very long interview. What I mean is, the interviewer asked me alot of questions. Such as Why I ask for $1200? And Why I leave my prevous job and so on. And also, she asked about my family. But when she start talking again, I get very sleepy seriously. I can't stand a person who is taking too much, I will get very sleepy. She asked to give her few more days as she had to interview other candidates as well on Monday. Hopefully, I will get her call on Wednesday. Because if I received a call from them, I will go for 2nd interview and that's a final interview. Hopefully, if I get to go for 2nd interview, hopefully I get the job.

Because it had happen to me before when I went for interview and then the employer call me for 2nd interview with the boss. In the end when I went for the 2nd interview, the boss lecture me about my studies and ask me to continue my studies and he say that my skills is isolated. I mean come on, if my skills is isolated, I can still learn new skills right? If you choose colour skin, just say so and there's no need to say that my skills is isolated or lecture me about my studies because you don't know what I'm going through and what my skills and what I can do and cannot do.

I don't like some employers because sometimes they like to choose the Chinese or China people who can speak their language. And also people who have higher education and experience. Talking about education, some people although they have higher cert but sometimes they are clumsy. Although I don't have much experience of Admin but I am willing to learn more about the company. I mean come on, this is Singapore don't be racist.

This is true about me that Although I can't speak Mandarin but I can understand abit. Don't think I'm Malay, I don't understand Mandarin. Some people they are always pride and show off their higher cert but they are clumsy. Nobody is perfect anyway.

2011-09-01T10:22:00.000+08:00

Goodbye to August! Goodbye to 1 Month of Fasting! Hello to September!

September, please be good to me! Hopefully I can get a new suitable job. I'm tired of running away from a job to a job. I really regretted that I left my job as Administrative Assistant at Choon Hoe Construction Pte Ltd. Who I always love to work with, love to go to work everyday even though every morning I look so sleepy but I go to work. I really miss working there. Boyfriend was last day working at Suntec yesterday. And today, he's first day work at Jubilee. Nearby my house. So he sleepover at my house so it's easier for him to go to work. But of course, doesn't mean he work at Amk, he will always sleepover at my house. Haha. Of course not. Not always lah. Sometimes I feel that I'm already married and had a wonderful husband who is hardworking. But not yet lah. Hopefully maybe next year.

2011-08-30T21:49:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya kepada semua umat-umat islam. Dan juga saya ingin mohon maaf kepada semua kawan-kawanku dan juga saudara maraku. Jika ada kesalahan atau terkasar bahasa, harap diampunkan. Maaf zahir dan batin.

Wake up in the morning at 9.30am and went for shower. After that, ironing my raya clothes and getting ready and apologies to my mother first before went to grandmother house. Went to grandmother house with mom this year. We are the first guest to arrived at there. After arriving, sat down for awhile and then eating time. After eating time, time to apologies to everyone in the house and also to my grandmother. I gave her money this year. It's been a long time I never give her money but this year I have a bit of money so I decided to give her a little. After finish saying sorry and crying, time to go home and sleep. Haha. Went home with mom. Reach home, undress, eat again and sleep. Boyfriend and Brother was peacefully sleeping while we were out. Wake up again at 3pm as Boyfriend has already wake up and wanted to eat. After eating, he went for smoke and then went for shower. And getting ready to go to work. Apologies to him before he went off to work. He still at work now, don't know what time he come back from work. Around 5.30pm, my sister and auntie came to my house. Then again, saying sorry and apologies but this time, I'm controlling my tears. I give money to my niece and nephews. This year hari raya is boring for me that is why I have no mood to celebrate. But this coming Saturday, family outing with the whole entire family full with one school bus. But I'm trying to escape it as I don't want to go.

2011-08-29T00:00:00.000+08:00

I was wondering why I've been dreaming weird things this days. Mom and sister seriously have to settle their problems by themselves. I can't tolerate anymore with their behaviour and attitude anymore. I'm tired. I don't understand why am I the one who have to be in the center of their problem? This is not my problem, this is their problem and they have to settle by themselves somehow. Tomorrow is Raya Eve. Hopefully, my salary will be in tomorrow as I want to give money to my niece and nephews. 1 more day to raya and I don't feel anything because I don't really care about raya this year. This year raya is boring and don't have any feeling of celebration. Maybe after visit my grandmother in the morning of raya, Maybe I will be meeting my boyfriend at his work place.

2011-08-26T20:24:00.001+08:00

Hi there blog readers! Sorry for not updating my blog for 1 week. There's nothing else to say. I've been to walk in interview at Cathay Amkhub Cinema on Tuesday. And I get the job. And start at 12pm - 8pm ( 8 hours) on Wednesday. First day do at the counter. I really scared and no confident to do at cashier. But its like they force me to do. I was the only girl at the counter and all are guys. But I have a buddy with me to do the cashier together. His name is Yasin. He teach me the basic of doing the counter. After he teach me for a few hours, then went for 30 mins break. After come back, but still he stop teaching me till I'm tired of standing for long hours and referring to the paper. At 6pm sharp, my schoolmate from YCK, Ace. He came to work and then he teach me also the basic. But then, I still can't remember that much of the promotion. Promotion for UOB, PASSION, NEBO, NTUC. Seriously guys, I really can''t remember that much. Remember the promotion and at the same time do cashier. I only say it once that I really couldn't do it and I really mean it. After break my fast, I come back and punch my card and ready to go home but then the manager or boss test me on the promotion. He test me about the passion card and how it works. I feel so ashamed as Ace was there in the office too and he heard what the boss and I were talking. I came home with angry and tired face. And don't feel good about it. The next day, I was suppose to start work at 12pm - 6pm (6 hours) but in the end, I didn't turn up for work. The manager called me 1 time and I didn't pick up his call. He message me and then I told he that I was not interested in the job anymore. Then he reply, ok then. I was like shocked that he say that because most of the employer will be angry because his staff did not turn up for work. But like finally, I was so straight forward and tell that I'm not interested with the job anymore. I really regret by taking a job that I don't like. I thought working in the cinema is easy than I thought but it wasn't easy. Seeing people doing the job, its like easy to us but when you have started that job, trust me it wasn't easy as you thought it is. I really really regret it. I hope it will not happen again. And one more thing, all the staff and the manager thinks that I'm a part timer that the TCC sent me. I told them that I'm a normal part timer. I don't use agency.

And another thing is that, I've called TCC Group yesterday. I asked them whether they are still interviewing the candidates but they say that they had found a suitable candidates. I mean they told me at the interview that they will certainly call me if I'm selected or not. But they didn't. Can't believe that they are the same as other employers. Will only say that they will call back but in the end no news at all. I mean if they had found a suitable candidates, at least call and tell us that they had found, don't make us wait like waiting for a fruit to fall from the tree.

2011-08-17T20:40:00.000+08:00

This morning, I dream about weird things. I was out with friends. We were in the MRT headed towards Yio Chu Kang. We were standing infront of the door. When the Mrt headed to Ang Mo Kio. One of my friend been molested by this Indian Man. What I mean by molested is that man put his hand on my friend's shoulder. But she just stand and do nothing until I shouted "Molester". The whole passenger of the Mrt can hear me that I shouted. What I did was, I hit his hand and I kicked him like a warrior. He was like scolded me in his language. He stand up again and start fighting with me. I fight with him like a warrior girl siol. Haha. After that, the door was automatically opened and there was a helicopter snatching my two friends. And I was left alone to fight with that indian man. The journey from Yio Chu Kang to Ang Mo Kio is quite far. The train stop after had reached to Ang Mo Kio station. All passenger had to exit to the rooftop for an investigation. When the investigation was going on, I jump down from pole to pole and escape from it and search for my two friends. But still can't be found. Wondering where they are. So weird right my dream? Hahaha.. Anyway, it's just a dream.

I received a call from TCC Group after I've sent my resume to them. They asked to come down for an interview before 4pm. I told them I can make it today. After hang up the phone, I quickly went to shower, get ready and went for interview immediately. After reached at TCC Group, had to fill up application form and there goes my 2 passport photos. They interview me and ask me questions and so on. After everything is done, went to Citylink Mall at CityHall. Feeling so weird when I wanted to go to HMV. Then who is the one who pick up my call when I call them yesterday regarding the job vacancy. Really weird. PELIK BIN AJAIB!

2011-08-16T18:57:00.000+08:00

Happy 1 Year 7 Months Anniversary!

Semoga hubungan kita dipanjangkan dan semoga hingga ke pelamin. Amin.

I really appreciate everything that he done for me. He is always there for me when I need him.

Every month we celebrated anniversary, even though Boyfriend is not a romantic person but he always never fail to surprise me with a gift when every time told him that I don't need a gift. I just need his love and time. I love him so much. :)

2011-08-15T22:44:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I went to fetch Boyfriend from work. After that, follow Boyfriend went to Toa Payoh to take something at his house. Reached at his house, rest for awhile and then went back home to my house. He pick a big paper bag. He surprised me with Burberry bag for Anniversary gift. Omg! Its very nice. And I love it! :)

I told him that I really don't need all that. I just need his love. But anyway, thank you sayang for the anniversary gift. Every month of our anniversary, you always bought me something but I didn't get you anything. You are such an amazing boyfriend I ever met. I love you sayang! :)

2011-08-14T16:35:00.001+08:00

Hello. Sorry for not updating my blog for such a long time. Internet at home been down since last week. So can't access the internet at home. Yesterday then can activate back because it has been pay the full amount. Life been so miserable for me as It's been hard to cope with the job at hospital. My future work is not at hospital. I have terminate myself on Friday as this whole week, I didn't attend to work. I went to take MC on Monday. The doctor suspected that I have appendix. And if the pain came back have to see doctor again and maybe will be admitted at hospital and have operation.

But whatever it is, I have quit that job and also I will find a new and a suitable job. I hope that my mom understand what I mean. I mean, I'm the one who will decide my job and what I want and what I don't want for my future. I don't need her to make my decision and decide what I want and what I don't want. I really don't mean to hurt her feelings but I want her to know that this my life and my own future.
PS: A mother will still love her childrens even though if they do bad things in their life.

2011-08-05T21:15:00.000+08:00

Thank god today is Friday. There's alot of things to do today. But today when I'm at work, the time is very slow. Wonder why. Yeah! Tomorrow and Sun can rest cos not working. My team leader has schedule me for next week. From Mon onwards, I work from 11.30am - 9pm. But I will try for 1 day and see how is it going. If not, I will try to talk to my team leader if I can change my schedule to morning shift. After my 1 hour break time, I do my job all the way non stop till 5pm. So tiring. Hopefully, Monday my day starts well without anyone or any interruption. To all my blog readers, Enjoy your weekends! ;)

2011-08-04T18:54:00.000+08:00

Thank God today I'm not overslept like yesterday. I wake up at 6.30am sharp. And I reach at my work place early. There's alot of things to do today. But I do my work so fast I can get the case notes. But some I couldn't get. Going to 5pm just now, I've got a warning from supervisor. She say that because I'm underage, I can't do that anymore. What she means that I cannot say that I can't attend to work last min and also can't be overslept anymore. What in my heart says that, what only overage and the older people can do that arh? Wth!!

2011-08-03T17:23:00.000+08:00

Goodbye to July! And welcome to August!

Sorry for not updating my blog for quite sometime. I've been busy working. I'm working at Singapore General Hospital Block 1 Basement 1. I've been attached to Health Information Management Services Department. Working as a Records Keeper. I've been attending to work this two days and today I didn't attend to work is because I'm overslept. I can't believe that I'm overslept. Luckily, my agency called my mom and tell me to tell my supervisor and team leader. I've got a good news from my agency. She say that my test result has been clear and they can convert me to 1 year contract. I feel so ashamed to my agency, mom, supervisor and team leader that I didn't attend to work today. I hope that tomorrow I will make sure that it won't happen again. That's it for now. Happy Fasting Month To All Muslims Out There. :)

2011-07-31T01:51:00.000+08:00

There's a lot of things that had happen with my family. I'm just naturally can talk to my mom's boyfriend. I don't know how to say this but I'm really happy about my family. A happy smile and laugh this days. And hell yes, went to watch Captain America yesterday at Boyfriend working place. So happy that I'm watching for FOC. Hahaha. My friends so jealous because I watch movie for free. :)

So fast that tomorrow is first day of work at SGH and first day of fasting month. And also, I can't break my fast at home with Mom. I have to break my fast at work. And everyday break fast at work. But it's okay. I'm fine with it. :)

Gonna go to cemetery with family and also Boyfriend follow us this time. Hopefully lah. Hehehe.. I asked Boyfriend to take off today as I want him to follow us. This time round, I will try my best to be honest with Boyfriend. I love him so much and I don't want to lose him like I lose my loved ones. :)

2011-07-27T23:32:00.000+08:00

Today is the day I meet my agency at Chervon House at Raffles Place to sign my contract for my employment at Singapore General Hospital. Suppose I start work tomorrow morning but in the end, the agency says she received a call and it has been postponed to next Monday, 1st of August 2011. The 1st day of Ramadan, fasting month. So fast its gonna be fasting month and then hari raya end of the month. Actually, I didn't think of hari raya this year because I don't feel like celebrating. More better I work then to give money to the kids.

Thank you so much Boyfriend! You from work, follow me to Chervon House, waited for me for about half an hour then went to Tiong Bahru Plaza for my medical check up then went to Lucky Plaza for my x-ray then after everything is done, walked from Lucky Plaza all the way to Bugis Street. Went to This Fashion to buy my office attire at Bugis. Then went back home. Thank you so much for your time sayang! I really appreciate it alot. Thank you. I'm so happy that I tell you honestly about what I did yesterday after you went off to work. I love you. :)

2011-07-26T23:08:00.000+08:00

I went to the library and borrowed this book it's called "Bila Cinta Sebuah Permainan Inilah Aturannya" translate this to English and its called "When Love Is A Game, These Are The Rules". This book looks interesting to me and it makes me feel that I want to borrow this book. Actually, I want to borrow Anger Management or maybe about Emotional. But there's no time for me today so I just borrowed one book only.

And yes! Finally, I have deleted my ex pictures and everything that he given to me. I have thrown everything! I don't want to remember my old memories. I love my Boyfriend so much. I know that he's the one for me. I love you baby! <3

2011-07-25T19:26:00.000+08:00

I had a nice conversation with Boyfriend just now before he went off to work. It is regarding about me, my family and everything that has happen. I had a heart to heart talk with him. Sayang, Thanks for being there for me when I really need you. You were always there for me when I need you. I really appreciate it alot. I feel so relief when I talk honestly with you. Now, I know the reason why you hate my ex so much. Thanks for wiping my tears off dear and thanks for being honest with me. I love you so much and I always will. :)

To my mom boyfriend, I want to apologies for what I've done and not talking to you and keep hiding in my room. I will get to know you one day. I just need some time. I hope you understand.

2011-07-24T12:29:00.000+08:00

I dream about my late step dad again. This time, I dream that Mom leave us and leave the house. After she left the house, late step dad trying to sell this wonderful house that I lived in. I don't know what is the meaning of my dream? And I can't believe that Mom brings her so called "Boyfriend" home last night. What the hell!!! And now, he still at my house. To whoever you are, get out of our house, you are not welcome here! I am still angry for what Mom is doing! I can't believe she let in her Boyfriend into our house. I'm so not gonna like this. At first, the whole family hates it when Mom says that she wants to get married again. We all really don't agree and tell her not to get married again. But she is so stubborn and still want to get married. She always scolded us if we don't let her get married. Is not gonna be the same again like how our late step dad treat us.

Ya Allah, what happen to my family? After my late step dad death, everyone in the house is busy with their own things. Mom is always busy with her Boyfriend after work everyday, brother is busy working and his games in his room. And I always left alone in the house doing nothing. Ya Allah, please forgive Mom sins. Please protect her from evil and those who always likes to dumb her. Please Allah. :(

2011-07-23T19:02:00.011+08:00

Like what? Finally, I return back my uniform. Hah! I did return my uniform back this morning and I pass it to my friend, Angel at Vivo this morning. Boyfriend follow me to vivo to return my uniform to my friend. Goodbye to Underwater World. I'm not working there anymore. What I've learn working there is that, learn to communicate and attract the customers, learn how to take picture professionally with Nikon camera, Build new friendship on my first day of work. It was fun working there and gonna miss my friends especially Angel and Saleha. Both of them are friendly and funny. Gonna miss you both. :)

Today is the sad day for me is because today is my late dad's birthday and also today is the 11th month of his death. All the bitter and sweet memories of him, I can never forget. Al- Fatiha kepada Allahyarham Bapa Tiri Ku. Pahit manis kenangan tidak dapat ku melupakannya. Semoga bapa tiriku ditempatkan dengan orang-orang yang beriman. Amin.

2011-07-22T12:45:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah! I've got a really good news to share with you guys! I've received a message from my agency, Bobby from Search Network yesterday. I've been offered to the job that I went for interview at Singapore General Hospital yesterday. Start a fresh new job on next Thursday. Working as Record Keeper/ Clerk. Perm Afternoon shift. Working hours: weekdays 11.30am - 8.30pm & Alt Sat 9am- 1pm. Hopefully, I will be alright to this job and can stick to this job for long term. :)

2011-07-21T19:42:00.000+08:00

Finally Boyfriend bought me Chocolate Melts for Breakfast this morning! Thank you Boyfriend! I feel so happy that Boyfriend bought Chocolate Melts just for me. He always know what I want. I went for an interview at Singapore General Hospital at 2.30pm but I reached there early because I hate to be late for interview. Waited at about 1 hour and a half then the interview come at about 2.35pm. The job is very easy and interesting and also the interviewer is nice to me till we both speak our language and laugh. But hopefully, I can get the job as I am confident enough. Thanks to my Tagged friends who have been supporting me from the beginning till now. Without you guys, there's nothing. So Thank you so much! :)

2011-07-20T19:38:00.000+08:00

Went out to Amk Central around afternoon to print out my resume and employment application for tomorrow's interview at Singapore General Hospital at 2.30pm. Hopefully went smoothly tomorrow. Today the weather is so fucking hot. Now, I'm feeling so sleepy. Hopefully, I can get the job. I will do it this time if I get the job. Because I want to be happy with what I'm doing. I don't want to act fake or do fake smile everyday when I go to work. If I'm not doing what I want, I'm not gonna be happy whatever I do.

Boyfriend!!! I want Chocolate Melts again!!!!! Craving for it again!!! Please!!! :)

2011-07-19T23:03:00.001+08:00

I went to job interview at 2pm today. It was not that good news. It was still the same thing every employer will say. They will call back by this week. Hopefully I can get the job. It was a debt collector. What my job role for Admin Coordinator is that, Data Entry, Customer Service, Filing and doing ad hoc duties. Hopefully, I get the job. :)

Oh No! Now, I'm craving for Chocolate Melts & Twister Fries from MacDonald again!!

I am craving for Chocolate Melts, Twister Fries, Cendol, Ben & Jerry Ice Cream, Go Go Frank, and many more. It's gonna be fasting month a few weeks more. I am totally craving for all of this. Boyfriend, please get me all of this that I'm craving for before fasting month can? :)

2011-07-18T21:39:00.000+08:00

Finally, I get experience a new of Chocolate Melts from MacDonald! It was really delicious. Feel like buying again. Thanks to Boyfriend who bought this for me this morning. I want to eat Chocolate Melts again. Maybe I'm buying again tomorrow. I'm having job interview tomorrow at 2pm at OG Albert Complex, Bugis. I'm prepared. Hopefully, I get the job. And also, got job interview this Thursday at SGH at 2.30pm.

I want to talk about my relationship with my Boyfriend. We both have many friends either girlfriends or boyfriends. We both know our limits and understand each other. I want our relationship to be stronger and happy till we get married. I still remember how he was angry with me when I go out with my ex. Sometimes, I'm thinking that he doesn't do that to me, why should I do that to him? No matter how many guys I've been going out with, I still love my Boyfriend and only him that I love. I told him this morning that no one can get him except me. He is the only one that can makes my hearts beat faster and slower at the same time. I love him so much. I won't let go of him. He is the one who give me strength to live up since after my late step dad passed away last year. I will never forget the good things that he done for me and my family. I won't forget that. I LOVE YOU MUHD JUFRI BIN ALI!!

2011-07-17T01:42:00.000+08:00

I was wondering why I keep dreaming of my last step dad. This time round, I dream that he was in the house, sitting at the sofa with his work clothes and keep staring at everyone in the house. But I'm the only one that can see him. Everyone in the house was so shock that they thought that I'm a crazy girl who talks alone. But I was talking to my late step dad. In the end, that was a dream. :)

2011-07-16T00:53:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 1 YEAR 6 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY TO US!

It's been 1 Year 6 Months we been through together. Bitter or sweet, we are always together. You are the most amazing Boyfriend I ever met. Thank you so much for spending time with me and showering with your love. I will always love you and only you! <3

2011-07-15T21:04:00.001+08:00

I dream about my late step dad this morning. This time round, I dream about him take caring mom who is sick and not well. I wonder why in the sudden I dream about him? I've got an job interview at SGH on next Thursday at 2.30pm. Hopefully I can get the job. But I still haven't given back my uniform. I'm just afraid they play me out. I'll just wait till going to the end of the month then I will give back. :)

Since after my brother comes back from reservist, I never talk to him since. He come back, keep scolded like hell that day. I never talk to anyone or eat ever since that incident happen. I feel like I'm a stranger to him. I feel better when I'm mute to everyone in the house. Because there's nothing to talk about. And damn didn't get to go for AMP tonight!! I wanna take picture with Rossa, Siti, Hady Mirza, Taufik and many more. But didn't get a chance to go.
NOTE: 1 DAY TO 1 YEAR 6 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY! :)

2011-07-14T19:18:00.000+08:00

Today is the day that Harry Potter Part 2 has been released in Singapore. And guess what? I get to watch with Boyfriend just now. I went to buy tickets at AmkHub. We watch the movie at 1.15pm as Boyfriend are working today. The movie ends at 3.25pm. The movie was damn awesome and I almost cried when the part where sad moments. The ending is best ever. And finally it's over. Done watching Harry Potter. Next up, gonna watch Twilight: The Breaking Dawn. Can't wait to watch Jacob, Bella and Edward again!! Thanks Boyfriend for watching Harry Potter with me just now. Love you! :) <3

Guess what? Yesterday was the amazing day ever for me as from now on, I'm using Iphone 4. Thank you sayang!!! I love you lah.!! I feel so damn happy. I get an Iphone 4, I get to watch Harry Potter. I'm so happy when I'm with him! Damn, Really happy!! Still counting 2 more days to our 1 Year 6 Months Anniversary!! Can't wait!!! :)

2011-07-13T11:38:00.000+08:00

Really got no mood to talk to anyone in the house. I feel more better not talking to anyone except my Boyfriend. I didn't eat the whole day yesterday. No mood at all and don't feel like eating. Wake up early in the morning, shower then get ready to buy newspaper. I was surprise that when I was reading The Straits Times, I saw Resort World and SATS advertisement and invite walk in interview. Oh My God! I don't know which one to choose. Resort World or SATS? I'm confused now. Resort World interview is on 15 & 16 July 2011. SATS interview is on 16 July 2011. How? How? How? Shit! I manged to get my salary end of the month. I told my manager that if he doesn't want to pay me, then I will not return my uniform. Yesterday, he message me and say for your case, he have talk to the boss and they will pay me end of the month and ask me to return the uniform by this week. But should I return the uniform by this week or not? I'm just afraid that if I give them back the uniform and they didn't transfer me my salary how? Or should I wait till going to end of the month then give them? How ehk? Should I play his game?

2011-07-12T22:36:00.001+08:00

To all my readers, I would like to apologise for not updating my blog. Currently I'm busy with the stupid job at the underworld as photography assistant. Now in the process of getting my salary at the end of the month. Really don't want to talk about it. Now currently keep on sending resumes around and had went a few interviews. And I have another interview on Tuesday. I keep on waking up early in the morning to buy straits times and newspaper. I wanna work at SATS. Although some of my friends says the job sucks or what so ever, I don't give a damn as I still want that job.

Happy 26th Birthday to my dearest Boyfriend!!! Semoga dipanjangkan umor dan dimurahkan rezeki. Amin. Hope you like the present! Love you! :) <3

2011-07-07T23:17:00.000+08:00

Hey my blog readers! Sorry for not updating from Monday Till yesterday as I was busy with work and meeting Boyfriend at his work place after work. Now, I'm currently not working as Photography Assistant anymore. As the job didn't work out for me. The job was tiring but fun. I can't do that job anymore as the job need to stand long hours. Stand from 9.30am -7pm. Can't sit or squad down. So tired. Only came for first day work and tues take MC and yesterday was my off day. And today, I quit my job. It's not that I'm being fussy about the job. One thing is, the travel time and the other is, I wish to do the job that I love to do. And how I wish I'm not a job hopper. Going to return my uniform, punch card, work ticket and my MC. Hopefully, I can get my pay. Like what the hell of my manager, didn't reply my message. I ask him whether do I still get my pay for my first day of work. He didn't reply me. Thought that I will give my uniform late because he didn't reply my message. I don't care if my pay is not that much but I want my first day work salary as I work full shift on my first day. Kill my time for that stupid job. I'm so regret of taking that job. Hopefully, my friend didn't get that job cos I don't want her to get bully by supervisor or others. You can get lot of friends there but you can get bully easily. Going for job interview this Sat at 10am at Newton. :)

2011-07-03T17:29:00.000+08:00

There goes my shaver! What the hell! It fell in drain in the toilet while I'm gonna cleaning it. OMG! Tomorrow will be my first day at work. I'm so nervous. This time round, I'm gonna take it seriously about the job. No playing games again. I will try my best to be a good worker. Hahaha. Like real only. Haha. I will try okay. God, I really miss Boyfriend so much. Hopefully, tomorrow night he can go home. Maybe I will drop by at his work place after work. Hopefully, he can go home. *Sad face*.

My best friend message me and told me that she wants to follow me to the interview to meet the supervisor tomorrow morning. But I told her that after interview, I start work on the spot. I told her to contact Chris, the Operation Manager first. Because he is the one who will arrange everything. Because I don't want to waste her time by asking her to follow me to fill up the form and end up she went home alone. If she can start work immediately, she go and meet the supervisor and start work on the spot.

Pray for me for my first day of work tomorrow morning guys! :)

2011-07-02T20:50:00.000+08:00

Hey guys! Today is Saturday and tomorrow is Sunday. I don't know why I'm so nervous about my first day of work on Monday at Underwater World Singapore as Photography Assistant. I'm just afraid that I might get confused of the monorail station and transfer to the blue line buses. It's been a long time never been to Underwater World. The last time, I went with my sister and brother in law. But now, I think everything has change. And I'm alone with no friends coming along with me. So sad. Why I don't feel confident regarding this job? Is it because I have no other friends are coming or something else? And also, I really miss my Boyfriend. Almost a week didn't get to meet him. I miss him so much. I miss his hugs. He have no off days :(

How I wish I was with him at work but I don't want to because I don't to interrupt him when he's at work. He is so hardworking guy. He told me that he's so hardworking for me.

Aww!! That's so touching my dear! Ever seen you work so hard this days, you really don't have time for me at all. You only message or call me. I really miss you so much. Please come home fast, I really miss you so much!! :(

2011-07-01T12:08:00.001+08:00

Say goodbye to June. June month is awesome when the day on my birthday. And also, there is a stressful days, weeks. There's also, happiness, sadness, boringness. Today is 1st July. Please be good to be July. I don't know why I'm so nervous on my 1st day of interview and work on Monday. I don't know whether a photography assistant is a cool & fun job or a boring job. I'm just afraid that it will be boring for me. Yesterday, I received an email from Joyce Tan. She from Ban Hock Hin Co Pte Ltd. She invited me for an interview today. But I didn't reply her because I don't want to go as the place is at No 6 Defu Lane 4, near hougang. But when I check the map into Google, it's very far from the bus stop. It has bus stop nearby but there is no lamp sign of bus which always tells you which bus to take. There is no bus walk pass there. Only cars and taxis. Then forget it then. The position that she offered me is Admin Receptionist. But never mind lah, I just take the photography assistant job and try first.

2011-06-30T16:26:00.000+08:00

I dream about weird things that happen to me. I dream that I was with a group of friends which I don't them. There's this girl, she squad down and keep vomiting non stop. We tried to help her. And then, there's alot of Japanese soldier came. They were marching and also they make my friends join them. And one of the Japanese Soldier tried to seduce me. l look at him with a fierce look. He pull me and carry me away. I don't know where he bring me to. The sad thing is that, he tied up my mouth and both my hands and he tear off my clothes and he raped me. After he finish his thing, he carry me to somewhere which I don't know. He throw me near the river. Luckily, there is one tall handsome man saw the Japanese Soldier throw me away. After the Japanese Soldier have gone, the tall handsome man save me. Thank you so much for helping me. He asked what happen to me. I told him everything that has happen to me. After I told him what happen to me and my friends, we both quickly look for my friends. To be continued...

To all my blog readers, I can't believe that I dream that Japanese Soldier. Luckily, nowadays there's no Japanese Soldier. And again, just a small matter I argue with Boyfriend. From yesterday till today still haven't feel good yet. Sometimes, small matters can make a couple argue with each other. Nowadays, I feel angry or not happy or jealous. Whose girlfirend wouldn't be jealous if her boyfriend have left for work. Sometimes, we woman are worry when their boyfriend went off to work. And wondering what they are doing at their work. Either they are doing their work or doing other work if you guys know what I mean. Nowadays, Boyfriend can't come back home and no more off days for him because of one of his friend didn't come work and just left the work just like that and there is not enough of manpower. But still, no matter much we argue, I still love him so much.
So fast tomorrow is July. Okay, till here then. Enjoy reading! :)

2011-06-29T20:39:00.000+08:00

Really had a boring day at home and really got no mood at all.

Look at how Boyfriend saying sorry and tries to coax me. But still, I'm in no mood now. This time round, I'm the one who is angry. Always he is the one who is angry and I have to coax him to be happy. Now, It's my turn, boy. If you can't accept me at my worst, then you don't deserve me at my best. You always joke harsh with me, And I told infront of you and your mom that I don't like it. But when I joke harsh with you, you feel angry right? Now, you know how I feel when you joke harsh with me, feel angry right? It's unfair right? If you really don't want me to make you angry then stop joke harsh with me cos I can make you more flames and fire. We both knows how our angry limits. But if I joke harsh, I will never say out the word "Break Up". I never say it out when we first met till now. You have already say it 3 times. I'm really disappointed. I know that you will say it out when you are angry.

I'm sad, not happy, disappointed, really boring. I lock myself in my room. And I guess, nobody is at home because as usual routine. My brother not working, he go out with his friends. My mom as usual, come back from work, take a shower/ cook then went out to meet her Boyfriend. As for me, sit in my room doing nothing than Facebooing, Tagging and Blogging. As Boyfriend calls me, I have nothing to say to him. I am so feeling down right now. Seriously. Feel like going to take sleeping pills and go to sleep. Don't feel like waking up anymore. The more waking up, the more it feels hurt.

2011-06-28T19:00:00.000+08:00

I have apply position of Retail Photography Assistant at Sentosa (Underwater World) in the afternoon. I was really amaze because they responded my email. I have read the terms & conditions carefully about the jobscope. And I have agreed and on Monday I start work and meet my supervisor as well at 9 am. The working hours is 9.30am -7pm. Working days: Mon, Tues, Thurs, Fri, Sat/Sun. Off day: Wed. Cool right every Wednesday is off day. The job is simple, just assist to take photograph for visitor. Simple right. The salary is $6/hr plus commission bonus. After 3 months probation, then can convert to full time.

And Alhamdulillah, I start work on Monday. It's okay if I didn't get a Admin job but at least I try a different job rather than stick to Admin. Because I have 3 Months experience of Admin. And I know that I won't get Admin job so easily cos I don't have that much of experience. Now, I'm gonna try Photography Assistant.

2011-06-27T16:16:00.000+08:00

Went to my dad's wedding at Bottle Tree, Khatib on last Saturday. Went with my mom, brother, sister plus my nephew & niece. The wedding day was beautiful and I've watched my dad married. And again of course, I have a new step mother again plus a few of small little sisters again. This is the life that I have to go on.

This is my family. I love my family so much! They are my first priority. They alway give me advice, give strength to live. Without them, I'm nothing.

2011-06-24T13:43:00.000+08:00

Hello To All My Readers Out There!! :)

On Wednesday, Boyfriend off day. I had a heart to heart talk with him. I told him that I really appreciate what he have given me. He had given me his time, his love, his care and concern. I really appreciate that. Luckily, I didn't make a rush decision. Patience is virtue. If you're in relationship, you have to patient, honest, truthful, understanding with the person you love. If you have none in the above stated, then the problem can never be settle. As for me, I really love my Boyfriend so much. I really appreciate what he have given me. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH JUFRI! :)

2011-06-21T18:53:00.000+08:00

Hey There! Yeah, just got back my Ipod from Boyfriend. He sent my Ipod for Jailbreak. And now, I can download game for free. And Boyfriend says that this coming Sunday gonna go to the roadshow at Bedok. Gonna buy Iphone 4 White. Yeah! Finally! Thanks Boyfriend. You are the best Boyfriend I ever had. :)

The bad news is: I didn't get into the shortlisted at NTUC As Admin. So I've decided to work back at BCS Information Systems. Salary: $800 + OT Claims. Never mind lah. But I know all the work there. Just do data entry of the account number, sort all the cheques accordingly and at the night do watermark. But I never do watermark before.

2011-06-20T13:18:00.000+08:00

Early in the morning my mom makes me angry. The reason why she make me angry is because she heat up the Asam Pedas and went off to work and she didn't turn off the heat. The smoke keep up exploring all around the kitchen. Luckily, she remember and call me and ask me to turn it off. OMG! If not, the house is on fire. And just now, she call again to ask whether her money drop on the floor in her room. OMG! Why today so many people in this house makes me angry???? Really couldn't take it anymore sitting here. The more I stay in the house The more I can be mad and fucking angry.

Number One : Angry with Mom, because of her I have to clean up the kitchen again!

Number Two: Angry with Brother because he always after finish eating or drinking, he didn't wash his own plate or cup or his stupid bottles. Wash his own clothes but always lazy to hang his own clothes!

Fuck lah! You all think what? I maid is it in the house! I know I'm a girl who have to do housework but I keep doing the same thing everyday. What The Hell!!! I'm not a maid okay!!!

2011-06-19T15:17:00.002+08:00

My Twenty Birthday Cake from Boyfriend! :) ♥

Celebrated my twenty birthday with Boyfriend yesterday. We went to Universal Studio Singapore. We went in and take a ride at Battlestar Galactica Red and Blue and also The Mummy. We went two times at The Mummy ride. It was fun!! Really fun!! I really enjoy my day. It was the best birthday that I can never forget. :) ♥

Hahaha! Look at our reaction when we took a ride at The Mummy! So funny! I keep on laughing when I see this picture! Really fun!! It was fun! :) ♥

Sayang, I would to thank you for bringing me to USS on my birthday. And thank you for everything. I really enjoy my day with you. I really had a great time with you. This is the very best birthday I ever had and can never forget. I really appreciate your time and everything for me!! Thank you so much!! I love you so much sayang!! :) ♥

2011-06-16T17:04:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 1 YEAR 5 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY TO US SAYANG! :)

Cinta dan Sayang I terhadap you tak akan pernah berubah.

Walau banyak dugaan yang datang, kita akan menghadapi bersama.

Dan Semoga hubungan kita kekal.

Dan tiada orang lain yang boleh mengantikan tempatmu.

I love you so much sayang! Muacksss! :) ♥♥

2011-06-15T10:16:00.001+08:00

Look What I've Received In The Mail Box! :) ♥♥

My Advanced Birthday Card! :) ♥♥

A Spa Voucher and Treatment! :) ♥♥

Plus, Enjoy my FREE Gift from DELCIE'S! :) ♥♥

Received my advanced birthday card and a spa voucher plus a free gift cake from DELCIE'S. Received this from my financial consultant. This is the first time I've received a birthday card. Thank you so much! I appreciate it alot! :) ♥♥♥♥

Thank you so mUCH! :)

2011-06-14T10:48:00.002+08:00

Good Morning To My Lovely Readers!

How are you today?

Have you taken your breakfast?

I'm still haven't taken my breakfast nor taking a shower yet.

Boyfriend wake me up at 8.30am. He went for shower. I went to pack breakfast for him to bring to work. He just reached at his work place already. Between Boyfriend and I, I hope everything goes alright and fine. Didn't went to Toa Payoh last night as Boyfriend was so tired and sleepy so decided headed home sweet home. He wants to settle the problem between him and his brother in law regarding the past when his brother in law keep disturbing me while Boyfriend is not around. So now, he's trying to settle it ASAP. I want Boyfriend to settle it but not follow with his egos. Boyfriend took off day on this coming Saturday, My 20th Birthday. :)

2011-06-13T20:22:00.000+08:00

Had a big arguing with Boyfriend last night. Because I went out with Bestie. He don't let me out with him. I'm stress, confused, unhappy, no mood and not feeling well. Boyfriend told me that he took a day off on my Birthday this coming Saturday. I hope everything is fine now between Boyfriend and I. I'm sorry sayang. Please forgive me. I thought you don't care about me. I just need your love. That's all. I'm not asking more. I love you. :)

2011-06-12T00:37:00.000+08:00

Boyfriend is right that he did not flirt with anyone and I trust him. But sometimes, it makes me feel that one of us is doing something wrong in relationship. Boyfriend is working so hard for both of us and I keep making mistakes. I'm sorry sayang. When one of us is okay, the other will start flirting with the third party. Sometimes I do trust him when he is at work and sometimes I don't. I just had enough of making those stupid decisions again. I'm tired of changing boyfriends. I don't need a ring, necklace or anything else from him because that's not important to me. What is important to me is that his love, time, care and concern. That's all I'm asking from him. I'm not asking more of it. Money can't buy you a happiness. I just need happiness. Now, he is honest with me and I trust him. But what about myself? Do I honest with him? The answer is "Allah knows it".

I just want to share with you guys something. If you're in a relationship, please be honest with your partner because if you are not honest, karma will bounce back to you. Well, I'm not saying that I'm honest, I admit I've done alot of mistakes but will try to resolve it ASAP before it getting worst. Seriously, karma will bounce back to you one day. It happens to me alot of time and that's why I believe in karma. That's all the tips for today. Thank you. :)

2011-06-11T02:19:00.000+08:00

Why is it my life is full of boringness? Is it I'm born with a life of boringness? Feeling so boring with my life ever since my late step dad left. And also feeling so boring ever since Boyfriend started working at the cinema at Suntec. He's been working very hard, day and night to earn more money. He doesn't have much time for me now this month. He told me that he don't have off day for the whole this month. I can't wait for 1 month. I'm too tired to wait. Sick and tired of waiting. And there's one thing I'm confused about and been waiting to know the answer from Boyfriend. When he called me few mins ago, I asked him when does he love me? His answer was the same 'Don't know'. And he says that let it feel by itself. But till when my dear? It's been almost 1 Year 5 Months now and still your answer still the same. If you don't know, then why you build relationship with me dear? Is it because that I confess my love to you, is that why you build relationship with me? I love you so much till I do anything for you my dear. I'm just sick and tired of making those stupid decisions again. All I know is that I love you so much and I don't want to let go of you. I simply don't understand why your answer make me feel disappointed. I don't know your true feelings till we get married. And still I don't know if I were to married you. As you still haven't let your feelings out. I want you to know that I always love you. :)

2011-06-10T01:12:00.000+08:00

I don't know what else I should think of. Maybe I shouldn't think that way as I thought I love my Boyfriend so much. Maybe I should give him a chance to prove to me that he love me. I don't know how that he can prove to me. I love him so much but I was like not 100% sure that he can lead me the way. Can he? I am so confused now. :(

2011-06-08T23:17:00.000+08:00

I received a call from Success Human Resource (Agency). It's regarding about the position that I have applied for. They have two positions for me. One is Sales Promoter at Swatches shop at Town area and the other one is Admin Assistant at Toa Payoh at my previous employer. I took the Admin Job as I'm too tired already to work as Sales Promoter that has to stand for long hours. Hopefully, there's a reply back from them. I just need a job that I can do. I know the requirement and procedures at my previous employer so I know what to do if I'm selected again to work for them. Hopefully, they won't say anything if I'm selected and get to work there again.

2011-06-07T11:57:00.001+08:00

Went out yesterday to pick Boyfriend up from work at Suntec Tower 4. Reached home at about 12.30am in then morning. He bought home 4 packets of popcorn. Now left 2 packets.

Boyfriend wakes me up at 8.30am in the morning. I cooked breakfast for him to bring for work. After I cooked for him, pack the food while he went for shower. After that, getting ready for work and he went off to work. Thanks to Boyfriend, now I can't go back to sleep.

If you are in relationship, is it possible to love 2 person at the same time? If yes, how can that possible? I know that Love and Like is two things different. Any suggestion or advice guys?

2011-06-06T13:13:00.000+08:00

It can be sound crazy if someone in love with two person at the same time. For me, I can't do that and I can't in love with two person at the same time. Bestie have been supporting and always gives me strength all the way. I have this situation that is serious. I always know that my bestie can lead me to the right path. But what about Boyfriend? Can he lead me to the right path? I know now is not the time yet but when is it the right time? I'm too tired to make my decisions because I know my decision can't be right sometimes. I shouldn't have made that stupid and stubborn decision in the first place. What an idiot am I!

2011-06-03T19:56:00.002+08:00

Boyfriend came to my house at 8.30am in the morning. I was shock when Boyfriend came into my room when I turn my body back. Finally he came. I really miss him so much. He only have started to work a few days and I already have miss him. Wash and hang his clothes. Then in the afternoon, I cooked Nasi Goreng Cina with Black Pepper Cocktail Sausages for him. Wake him up at 3pm and serve him food. Then I rest for awhile and spend my little time with him. Then I cook again for him to bring to work. This time round, I cooked Nasi Goreng Kampong with Spicy Nuggets. After finish cooking, Boyfriend went for shower and left for work at 4pm. He work from 5pm- midnight or maybe till 1 or 2am in the morning. Poor Boyfriend, had to work afternoon shift till in the morning and didn't come home mostly. For this month, he doesn't have any off days.

I have told bestie that I'm not going to Perth because if I go, what about my Boyfriend. Unless if we go with our friends, Amin and Atiqah. Because I don't want my Boyfriend to think that I'm cheating him our relationship. I love Boyfriend so much. And I'm not gonna cheat him. :)

2011-06-02T15:05:00.000+08:00

Meet up with bestie yesterday. Bestie and I planned that we thought of going vacation in Perth, Australia. If I go, what about my Boyfriend? Should I go for vacation with Bestie or not? I told bestie that I don't want to lose my chance to go to Perth. Boyfriend call me last night and he told me that don't be naughty. What I think is that Boyfriend is still caring about me. I thought that Boyfriend is not caring about me. He is still caring about me. But the thing is, I want to travel around the world. And this is my only chance to travel to Perth with Bestie. I know that I shouldn't go with Bestie, I should go with Boyfriend. I'm afraid that Boyfriend won't let me go with Bestie.

I've received call from my previous employer, ML Consulting. They call me back to do Data Entry again for different project. They say that I could start today. A few mins later, they call back and say that the slot is full for today so they call back and tell me if there's not enough manpower. I'm happy that they call back and say that would you be interested to work with us again. I'm really happy. It's been a while that I want to work there again. :)

2011-06-01T12:39:00.000+08:00

Farewell to May! Hello to June!

June please be good to me. I want a job please. So fast it's June.

Boyfriend is working morning shift, don't know what time he finish work.

I have sent a email to my previous boss's wife. To whether can work back with them.

Okay lah, till here because there's nothing to talk about actually.